I know the feeling. We just got to hold on to hope, however small it might be. Personally, I'm wishing for the world to end soon though. Sorry, but I just can't say something without adding something stupid because usually, it brings a smile to the person's face with whom I'm talking to, so its a habit now. Damn it, I am an idiot.
then you talk to your friendlings online. or do vent drawings. i slashed up my arm when i found out he was having sex with another girl, but now that i look back, i should'nt have wasted my blood nor my tears on the prick. there will always be another. it doesn't feel like it at first. if you search, you wont find. if you wait and let the world pass by, it could be a week, or a few months, they will find you (: i was terrified of being alone so stayed in an abusive relationship for over a year, just because i knew nothing else. that in turn was what affected the next relationship. but y'know what? if he can't handle my tears, how i prefer to be there for my friends online when they have no one else, and try to change my personality, then fuck him. i wont change for anyone, and neither should you. life is for living so live it to the full, be yourself :3
if he left you and has not tried to get back with you since,or has been with other people, then he knew what he was doing we'll never know what guys are thinking. personally speaking all my male friends haven't matured one bit in the 2-3 years i've known them. Boys don't think ahead, they think on impulse and this usually results in shit. from the sounds of it, if he is still flirting with you but refusing to be with you, then he's playing you and you're just a bit of fun. if he's not flirting anymore/wanting you back, then you could try to move on. have fun! when steven broke up with me and a few days later started sleeping with his ex again (this was like 2 days ago) i was devastated. he came up with a million excuses to why it wasnt working out but then i figured he probably just wanted an easy fuck then go back to the pathetic cow who took him back
Mh.. we have similar situations, even the name of our ex boyfriends (my ex name is Stefan). Lol.
The problem in my situation is that he's surrounded by false and subtle people that, in this year, fake a friendship with me.
I am discovering, day by day, they are his girlfriend (former ex) friends (even if they had always told me they hate her), and they faked a friendship with me just to tell her everything I would have said about him or her (I even discovered that, when we were together, they went to him, and kept telling him "Before or then you'll break with Silvia to come back to your ex"), and then, she made him hating me.
So, since he's surrounded by that false girl (he left her millionth of time, even before knowing me, in 4 years, because he knows, in his innermost, how she is for real) and those "friends", he is not "able" to think for real.
He hates me more or less since the day (beginning of last june) she moved in his house. As a friend of mine said, "he doesn't care anymore of whatever I do, since she's there", he even removed a lot of favs here on DA he made in my gallery, since the day she's there, for example. And didn't talk to me anymore, beside two angry messages telling me to forget him and so on, but, since she lives there (and she has his passwords), who knows if he really wrote those messages.. or she did.
If he knows she goes on all his things, it doesn't matter who sent the mails or not. He would have accepted that she did this and doesnt mind because he's with her now. with the bitches and the girlfriend constantly whispering into his ear, he will not listen to anything you say. you can try corner him off on his own when you get the chance face to face, and pry to find out what he actually thinks. when i was with Steven i just found out his ex was in constant contact with him, whispering shit into his ear which inevitably made him turn round and hate me. it hurts, i mean i threw up this morning when i thought of him and her having sex, god that was awful. just try to look like you're having fun and enjoying life. guys aren't attracted to moping ex girlfriends. they get interested again when there's pics of you smiling, flirting with other guys- even if you don't mean it to be anything - and just generally having a good time. it's easier than you think, just stop thinking and let yourself free. don't think before saying something and mess up the walls of your room with paint - did that before my english exam haha- if you've got facebook i'll talk to you there, deviantart is a pain
I have been blocked in every account I have by him (or her, dunno), so he wouldn't know how I am and what I am doing, if I am happy or whatsoever, especially because she keeps an eye on my account here on DA (not the stock yet, though) before he could do and regret what he did.
She does nothing in her life (yes, she lives with him as a BUG), I see visits from her here almost everyday.
I haven't anymore friends here in my city, my last friends betrayed me to stay by her side, as I told you, so he can't even know what I do through mutual friends.
People tell me that the fault is his, but I am sure it's not only his, it's hers too, due to all these friends of hers around him. I even remember that a friend of hers (who hates me a lot), sent her an sms, one evening I was JUST TALKING to him at the club, to tell her that she saw him with me.. and we had just met for the first time, that evening, so we weren't yet friends either. Since that sms from on, she looked for infos about me and mutual friends with me, to ask them stuff about me. And they replied helping her.
My relationship with him was "cursed" before starting.
I can't show my feelings, my pain in my photos, because of his girlfriend (former ex) that keeps on checking my DA profile almost every day, surely to laugh at my pain and enforce his hate (she made him hating me) against me.
first she didnt made him , people in these situation blame the other girl trust me hes the bad one if not her then he will find another , and thats not what i meant , i meant lose ur self in the things you love and enjoy dont dwell in your loss , its not a loss a while from now you will realize its for the best in some way trust me , am not asking you not to be sad no if you feel sad then feel it get it out of your system but love everything else around you and embrace life its beautiful and you have a long life ahead to find the one makes you happy , be blessed btw be brave and delete her and him from your life dont mind what they gona say about it they dont matter anymore
I can't block people on DA, blocking people prevents just to not comment, but she just visits, nothing else.
And anyway I blame her because it's not the first time I hear that he left her, and she made him come back to her.
Once, even if he left me, he at least cared of my art, of my opinion, but since now she lives with him, he hates me and doesn't care of anything, and doesn't even fav what he likes of what I do (he even removed some favs of mine, since she lives there).
let them be , if they dont care for you dont care for them , live your life and forget them , i believe in karma and trust me she will get what she deserve , alot love your work and fav it focus on them and forget him for your own good sweets i know it hurt trust me i've been there and am only giving this advice because i recovered from what i thought i can never forget or live without or anything even without another man it's been a year and am single and i forgot all about my ex and my friend who stabbed me in the back and walked away with my man,enjoy your life laugh love and make new friends meet new people and remember there are people with much worse problems, you have your health, family ,talent and us xoxo